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Monday, June 7, 2010

Post Partum Syndrome...

I know I haven’t been active in my blog recently…. So, what’s going on with me? Simply put, I haven’t been quite right since I had Abby. Since I am going to be honest, I can say that I am pretty sure I have been dealing with postpartum depression... been very sensitive lately.

I usually don’t like admitting weakness…it makes me feel like I am a failure, but I have to own up to the fact that I am not in quite a good place right now. Some might be imagining me being down in the dumps crying and feeling totally depressed and wacked out. I’m not. The best way I can describe it is to say that I have no energy, no drive, no real connection to anything, and I seem to lack the will to just do anything about it…I can’t seem to pull myself out of the kind of fogginess I have been residing in for the past weeks to force myself to do anything…lord knows I have tried.

I have to wonder if I set myself up for this. You see, I arrogantly assumed that since I recovered quite well and easily from all my normal deliveries…. I would be fine this time around too. I should have realized that after having some issues in giving birth with her.. she was my 1st Caesarian and having a tubal ligation at the same time. For the first couple of weeks after having Abby I felt fine I guess, tired and weak from my bleed and stitches and my back being really strained but emotionally all I remember feeling was tired and pretty happy. After that I just seemed to slowly slide to the point where I am now…basically just sitting all the time ignoring the rest of the world, the exception being Abby, I am around her and holding her constantly…but I’ve been very impatient with the rest of my kids. that it is probably some kind of hormone thing…
Everyone expects me to be strong and happy and able to take care of myself…I’ve been doing it forever it seems, but right now I admit that I need a moral boost. Thank God, hubby and the kids has been very supportive to me.

I am behind on blogging and email…I am going to start trying to brag myself back into doing it but it will be a bit. I start taking something to balance me out so I can get myself back... blogging :-)  This is hard, I feel like I am trapped within myself…there is a part of me that keeps beating at me inside my head telling me to get going, get working, go outside, go shopping, do something; but the rest of me just waves it off and says “later”.

I’m going to try to keep the blog updated…I really do enjoy blogging. So, that’s where I’ve been…that’s what I have been dealing with and that is why I haven’t been around much or posting.

Friday, May 21, 2010

The Arrival of Abegail

It was 17th of May, 2010, we got to the hospital around10am, discussed with my doctor about the CS procedure… and scheduled the operation by 5.30pm. Since the hospital is very near to my home, we went for brunch and head home to prepare my stuff.


3.30pm, we went back to hospital and the nurse take us to our room. I got changed into the hospital gown, answered a ton of admission questions , got my IV ready. My anesthesiologist came and introduced himself and straight away send me to the operating theater. My doctor came at exactly 5.30pm and told me that he can’t allow my husband to witness my operation since he looks uneasy outside.
I'm not going to lie... when the anesthesia was shot into my back spine.. It hurts....for a moment, i  started to feel numb and dizzy.

As soon as I feel numb, they made me lay down until they started the cutting work :-) When my doctor started to open my belly, he told me that the baby just pooped inside… just right on time to take her out of my tummy… Just 10 short minutes later, my baby girl was born...


 
When she let out her first cry, I could not control myself…
There is no better sound in the entire world than hearing your baby cry for the first time. I did not got to hold her immediately coz the pediatrician has to check her vitals.
My doc continued to work on my stitches and make sure that all my organs are still intact. I was out of the operating room by 7.30pm and saw my husband and brother waiting outside. “She so fair and perfect” … my hubby told me and kissed me.

Welcome my Baby Abby!

Friday, May 14, 2010

Baby Abby is Arriving on 17th May via CS

The ultrasound confirmed that Abby is still in breech position and my doctor advised me to schedule the Caesarian delivery within a week. Since weekend is approaching, I decided to schedule my operation on Monday, 17th May. I pushed it for few more days so I can spend sometime with my kids before I go for my 1st major operation… Never in my entire life I went to an operating theater and got knife

I barely slept .I kept holding my belly and feeling my baby move, knowing that it would all be over soon. I was so excited to meet her but also a little nervous about going through the Caesarian delivery. This weekend, I will not do anything but to play with my fab 4 and telling them that Abby is arriving on Monday.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Ways to Turn my Breech Baby

I've been practising some of the ways to turn my breech baby... Be sure to check with your provider before trying the positions for turning a breech baby to see if there is any reason why you should not use them.

Here are 17 Ways to Turn Your Breech Baby!



1. Visualizing the baby moving down with the head very deep in your pelvis, several times a day; especially in conjunction with positions and exercises below.

2. Swimming as often as possible. This keeps your body and pelvis loose and relaxed. Do in conjunction with headstand below if you have help.

3. Headstand - with assistance and in a pool frequently as possible.
4. Breech Tilt - begin at 32-35 weeks gestation. Do 3 times daily for 10-15 minutes each time, when you have an empty stomach, and the baby is active. Prop one end of an ironing board securely on a sofa or chair 12 to 18 inches high (or may use slant board). Lie down, bend knees but keep feet flat on board. Relax, breathe deeply, avoid tensing. May also use pillows on a flat surface to raise hips 12-18" above shoulders. Gravity pushes the baby's head into the fundus, tucks it, and baby can then do a somersault to a vertex position.

5. CD/iPod headphones - place them inside mom's pants toward her pubic bone and play classical music for 10 minutes 6-8 times a day. 


6. Flashlight - try moving slowly down from the top of the uterus toward your pubic bone while you are in a breech tilt position.


7. Massage - start with your left hand at the bottom of the abdomen and your right hand just above it. Move move your hands clockwise around the right side of your tummy. As your right hand reaches the top of your abdomen, slide the left one over your right and move it down the left side of your tummy. Your left hand leads as you you come full circle, continuing clockwise. Massage gently as you would to apply lotion. Massage for ten minutes or more up to several times each day.

8. Clothespin - place on the small toe of each foot at the outside corner of the toenail; sideways so that the toenail and toepad are stimulated for 30 minutes per day, this is an acupressure point that is a "moving down" point. You can also do this with just finger pressure as you remember to do it.

9. Motion Sickness band - place with the bead four fingerwidths above the inner ankle bone - another acupressure point that is used for stimulation of the uterus. Do not use this point if you are experiencing any pre-term labor.

10. Glass of orange or other juice - follow this with a side-lying position with your hips positioned higher than your feet. Babies move more after a sugar high!

11. Pelvic Tilt- with an ice pack on the top of your tummy on an empty stomach, 10 minutes twice a day. Do this while lying on your back on the floor with knees flexed and feet on the floor with three large pillows placed under your buttocks. Try this in conjunction with headphones and visualization.
12. Cat stretch - start with all fours, then lay your head and chest flat on the floor with your buttocks in the air, as you round your back and return to all fours.
13. Knee-chest position - by kneeling with hips flexed slightly more than 90 degree, but with thighs not pressing against your tummy and your head, shoulders and upper chest are flat on a mattress for 15 minutes every two waking hours for five days.
14. Belly Relaxing followed by Inversion - Partner places a shawl, sheet, towel or rebozo under mom's hips as she lays on the floor. Lift up on the corners of the cloth and shimmy her from side to side moving your hands up and down to wiggle her belly from side to side. These should be very small movements which mom should find very relaxing. Do this for about 5 minutes. Then mother kneels on the stairway landing. Walk your hands down 2 or 3 stairs into an all fours position; have your partner support your shoulders to balance you. Remain in this position for about 5-10 minutes or as long as comfortable. Also do this on an empty stomach.

The following techniques to turn breech babies to vertex involve the assistance of a specialist or medical professional:

15. Acupuncture - find a acupuncturist who is familiar with pregnancy and knows the points to stimulate for turning a breech baby.

16. Webster's Breech Technique - see a Chiropractor who is experienced in this technique.
17. External Version - this can be done in the hospital at about 37 weeks; see an Ob-Gyn for assistance and more information.

Friday, April 16, 2010

Breech... in 34 Weeks... makes me Weak

Waaaaa... my posting title rhymes very well :-)

My little one prefers right now to be in a breech position. Although she moves around quite a bit, she still ends up breech. I am having another ultrasound on 30th April  and my OB advice me to put a speaker down to my pelvis so she can turn head down. But she also assured me that we still have some time before really becoming concerned!

There are several different positions that are all considered to be breech:
 
 
  • Incomplete (Footling) breech - feet first
  • Complete breech - baby sitting on heels (Buddha style)
  • Frank breech - bottom first, with feet up by head  >>>> this is MEEEE

 If the baby stays breech in 37 weeks , i might probably have a cesarean birth... Ouch!







Thursday, March 25, 2010

Wine & Dine Event --- Cheers!

Finally made it!  Wine & dine event held at La Cocina.
Good Food! Great Friends to Cheers!


All is set... table topper made by yours trully using the MacBook Pro Templates


4 types of Allunga Wine has been served, tasted and rated according to the pallete of every guest... my personal preference was Shiraz and Cabernet Merlot. Surprisingly, the highest rate goes to Shiraz. It was perfectly paired with Lamb in reduction sauce

The after effect of Shiraz.....an empty plate

 hubby's colleague is seriously taking notes the wine grid while he is busy doing the food pairing....


Jared has been toxicated with few sip of Allunga!


the best part of this event is being reunited with Jazzy after being distant for almost 6 months... great to have a Cheers with you again my friend!


and my hubby is shoving away to the camera ... why???

Overall, we all had a great time!
See you all next time.... call me if you need to be a Wine Expert in 60 seconds!


Friday, March 12, 2010

Ate Nida....

My wonderful Nanny for 2 1/2 years went to Canada recently.... a better future that we all hoped for her....


Ate Nida has been a great help in my family specially to Jewel. She  taught my baby girl a lot of things and i allowed her to call her "nanay" (mother in tagalog). She was very closed to all my kids and treated them like her own. We started to miss her recently and i personally felt something is missing everytime i reached home.
I even cried reading her email recently and sometime get teary when i stared at her pciture with my kids.


With Alex


Farewell dinner @ La Cocina ; Opa Sangria! with Iah

I find it hard to cope with the household right now but with the help of Juliah and Alex... i know things will get better. I'm about to get my new maid in few weeks from now but i find it hard to accept that i have to get along with a total stranger in my home whom i have to entrust all my precious children....

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Peach Fridge Cake

I had a bedrest weekend and decided to prepare this simple cake recipe for the kids.

Ingredients:

1 x 30ml Carnation Condensed Milk
2 x 250ml Nestle All Purpose Cream
1 x 200g Graham Cracker or Marie Cracker
1 x Can Peached Slices


Procedure:

1. Slice the peaches thinly, otherwise the peaches will sink into the mixture of cream and condensed milk. Put separately.

2. Mix carnation condensed milk and nestle cream in a bowl. Set aside.

3. Arrange graham crackers in a rectangular dish. Ensure that crackers covered the entire   container.

4. Pour the cream mixture and topped with peach slices

5. Repeat the entire procedure for the remaining ingredients ending with rest of the cream mixture. Decorate with peach slices on top.

6. Let it chilled in the fridge for 3 hours. Transfer to freezer for more cake-like consistency.


Sunday, February 28, 2010

100 Reasons why i love my hubby

1. I love the way he puts our family above himself
2. I love the way that he loves me... its bionic :-)
3. I love the way that we do silly things together
4. I love the way he "manja" to me
5. I love the way he worries about me when im sick
6. I love that he looks at me when he's angry
7. I love that he’ll move all his schedule just to meet my schedule
8. I love that he is willing to start over with nothing just to be with me.
9. I love his chinky eyes that he tried harder to have a fake double eyelid
10. I love his smile without dimples
11. I love that he isn’t afraid to cry....once
12. I love that he is tough on the outside, but tender on this inside.
13. I love how he is still the same man after all of this time.
14. I love that he makes my knees weak, and my head spin, just by hearing him saying "babe, i love you"
15. I love that he wants to experience everything together... including eating "balut"
16. I love that he trusts my judgement....
17. I love that his is patient with me even im so hot tempered
18. I love that he calls me "baaaabeeee" in longer version
19. I love his confidence.
20. I love that he can handle adversity and come out stronger.
21. I love his intelligence.... yet not geeky
22. I love his lust for knowledge.
23. I love that he love me…more.
24. I love that he depends on me on somethings , and knows that he can.
25. I love the look on his face when he’s being naughty.
26. I love that we can finish each other’s sentences and listen to each other over a cup of coffee
27. I love that no matter what the subject, we are always on the same wavelength at the exact same time.
28. I love him for cuddling me in public
29. I love that he’s incredibly sentimental and romantic
30. I love that he understands what he did when he blows it.
31. I love when he’s quirky.
32. I love that he is organized.... specially on his toys and gadgets
33. I love that he loves himself.... and believes to himself
34. I love that he truly makes me feel beautiful inside and out.
35. I love when we look into each other’s eyes, and the rest of the world disappears.
36. I love when he tells me that he will always protect me, and that I know that he means it…always.
37. I love that he says that I have made him a better person.
38. I love that he has experienced horrible things and still radiates life.
39. I love that he isn’t afraid or intimidated by me.
40. I love that he is passionate, fierce, and sensitive.
41. I love that he has a huge heart.
42. I love the fact that we dream up grand adventures together..... and growing old together
43. I love that he has seen 5% of the world and wants to see the rest of it with me only
44. I love that he isn’t afraid to tell me his deepest fears.
45. I love that he has a strong work ethic.
46. I love when when we look at each other across a crowded room, everyone else disappears.
47. I love that he makes me see that my heart has finally found a home.
48. I love that he is good under adverse conditions.
49. I love that he values my opinion.
50. I love that he is handsome, and I never tire of looking at him.
51. I love that he is sexy without really knowing it.... with all the singlets and boxers
52. I love that he did a lot of hard time for me, when he could have made it easier on himself.
53. I love that he can be perverted, and yet I love it.
54. I love that he is not afraid to ask for help.
55. I love that he is the most gorgeous man that I have ever seen.
56. I love that he keeps his promises.
57. I love that he loves showing off in front of me.
58. I love that he seeks peace amid a world of turmoil
59. I love that he’ll admit when he is wrong…eventually.
60. I love that he loves even the bad pictures of us together.
61. I love that he talks about me, us and our future to others because he is proud of it.
62. I love that he understands my humor.
63. I love that he is accepting.
64. I love that he shows off when he knows that he is good at something.
65. I love that he dont refused to be sniffed by me when he's sweaty
66. I love that he appreciates the beauty and value of things.
67. I love that he loves to play the role of handy manny at home .... with his new and equipped tool box
68. I love that he loves me more than life itself.
69. I love that he can be stubborn, but will melt if I ask him to do something.
70. I love that he is willing to try anything once.
71. I love that he won’t share me except with my family.
72. I love that he’s overly protective to our children
73. I love that he accepted all my flaws
74. I love the way he kissed me every morning and whisper for a breakfast together
75. I love that he took an incredible risk at the beginning of our relationship because he loved me.
76. I love that he said that he’ll love me even if I get fat and ugly :-0
77. I love that he encourages me to have friends of my own
78. I love that he is incredibly loyal.
79. I love that he loves surprises.
80. I love that he still belives in chilvary.
81. I love that he gets along with about everyone.... even with my pinoy friends
82. I love that he is good at forgiving me for occasional stupidity.
83. I love that he is willing to suffer in silence.
84. I love that he acts like a baby when he is sick.
85. I love that he has always calls me babe in front of anyone...
86. I love that he reads books and spend time with our children
87. I love that he strives to always be better.
88. I love that he gets jealous sometimes
89. I love that he is incredibly protective
90. I love that he loves his parents and siblings.
91. I love that he wants to right all of the wrongs in my life.
92. I love that he loves movies as much as I do.
93. I love that he misses me even im just few blocks away
94. I love that I can lose myself in his eyes.
95. I love that my every wish is his command :-)
96. I love that he writes mushy dedication in every book he gave me
97. I love that he never says “no”.
98. I love that he tolerates my possessiveness.
99. I love that he came back to me after so many break-ups during BF-GF times....

100. I love you for MARRYING ME & giving me HOME






Thursday, February 25, 2010

Day to Day... by Day

Here's a little picture of my day: I'm half awake around 8am and will be fully awaken reluctantly by my 2 babies.  Wallace cheerily tells me "time to geh up, mama!". By then, time to prepare him for school and will be heading off school by 9am.


Sometime between 10 and 11, I force myself off the couch, eat a bar of chocolate myself and make some  hot coco. I check my email, do some work, answer some phone calls, get  letters from mailbox. Around 12.30 will be heading to school to pick up Wallace then off to work by 1noon.

Reach office feeling hungry and bit sleepy...  Check emails.... endless replies.... talk to the boss for while regarding today's work shcedule.... I'm exhausted and ready for a nap. But I'm also starving. I go down to resto for  lunch by 3pm. I'm still hungry. I eat dessert by 4pm

And again at 6 p.m. And then again at 8 p.m., never feeling full....eat fancy dinner at resto with MacBook on side. By 9 p.m. i will be updating my corporate group FB, spam e-mail marketing....and thinking of Wallace and Jewel back at home.I'm exhausted and baby keeps on moving in my tummy. Will be killing my time watching my floor staff until 11pm... Head off to home.

Reach home, I stay up until nearly 1 a.m. finishing some freelance work and checking some things for my  tomorrow's work schedule.

Off to bed and will be watching Wallace & Jewel faces lying down on both side of my bed......trying to figure out where to place the new baby in my tummy. 

When I fall into bed I'm beyond tired. I'm getting 6-7 hours of sleep a night....

Tomorrow is another day :-)

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Photography makes my tummy happy :-)

Whats so cool about my current job?? Apart from learning soooo much things about wine and food pairing .... (im about to become a Sommelier soon) i also have the privilege to try new dishes before it become official. Gastronomic indulgence!

I had fun today taking photos of our NEW Set Lunch as well as the NEW Dessert.....
Though i do not have the professional lessons in photography, my strong interest and creative flare in portrait shoot and cuisine shoot makes me equipped with the basic know-how (know to point and shoot only). Now i understand why my hubby has been investing with all these gadgets and kept on bugging me about the Nikonian Academy. He's so supportive for letting me to know better his mistress.... the Nikon D80 :-)

Here are some photos taken earlier...


Thai Style Green Curry - Set Lunch (RM9.90)

Fish Fillet served with Steamed Rice and Vegetable (RM12.90)


Lamb Lasagne... our very own homemade pasta layered sheets with minced lamb meats and zesty tomato sauce and lotsa' mozarella cheese  (RM12.90)

*** All set lunch is inclusive of Soup of the Day + Drinks + Fruit Dessert***

It's really value for money.......

Anyway, our set lunch normally changes every week. The 3rd week  lunch is awesome coz' there are 5 selections to choose from ( meat,fish,pasta and local dish )... i had it ALL today :-)

 
I also had a chance to taste this new dessert called APPLE Tart.... it was rich and tasty.

Apple Tart Topped with Vanilla Ice Cream (RM8.90)

Well, posting this entry and photos makes me craving.... hmmmmm tomorrow lets see what's in the menu.






Saturday, February 20, 2010

Back to Old Blog

I was trying to think of something to blog in the middle of wee hours when i suddenly stumble upon my old blogsite blinkingpark.blogspot.com

5 years ago..... time flies....

Friday, February 19, 2010

Gong Xi Fa Chai - 2010

It was a very hectic preparation for this year's CNY Celebration. I was working a day before the Chinese New Year eve and left my work place after dinner to catch the long journey to our family hometown, Cameron Highlands. There's no better place like hometown during the long holidays like this. Being married to a Chinese and assimilated most of it's customs and traditions, i have learned to embrace and loved the Chinese New Year holiday.

Wallace.. wearing his traditional CNY shirt (red is a must!)
 Chiang Family

Papa's Boy                                                        Mama's Girl

Missing My W's

My Wallace & William left today to visit some relatives in Kuantan to "give" and "take" the Chinese New Year Ang Pau....


In blogging myself out to catch my sleep without Wallace beside me... **sigh** missing my cheeky baby.... few more nights seems to be sooooo long


Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Teenage Mommy... my story


Society nowadays has a lot against teenage pregnancy…. and to me, it is saddening to think that teen mums are looked at as though they are "Silly little girls" who couldn't do the right thing and keep their legs crossed...

Here is my experience as a teenage mum! (maybe britney and jaime spears... and others can share thier experiences too!)


My mum left when I was 6… My dad passed away when I was 12.... and I had a melodramatic-fantastic-tragic childhood life and so goes the story of the teenage mum..


I was 16 when I fell pregnant with my first daughter, Juliah. It was my first intimate relationship… fresh and curiosity (kills the cat) and ended up in teen-pregnancy just right after HS…. It was not long after I conceived on my second daughter Alexandra… I was 18 then.. still na├»ve and stupid I should say.

After the second baby was born I decided that it was time to get out of this bad relationship and move on…. Even though there were going to be hassles, I stood my ground since there’s no wedding ring…no legal and emotional binding attached.

Shortly after the separation, I worked odd jobs and enrolled back to school….I swear! It was the most challenging part of being a single-teenage mum. I worked every single day and night of my life…. But still not enough.


I don't go out to parties, I don't waste my money on wants…I have to squeeze my pocket here and there… I take my daughter just about everywhere I go… even in school or in my workplace.


I gave up my life as I chose to have a child at a young age and in doing that, it is my responsibility to make sure they are well taken care of.

Greatest pain was to leave them to take the new challenges and work overseas…it was all HARDWORK.. TEARS... HOMESICK...


THE FAIRYTALE….

I kept dreaming that one day I would still have a perfect family…. Then, prayers were answered when I met my PERFECT PRINCE CHARMING… ( that would be the 2nd part of my story on this blog... watch out!)


CONCLUSION:

Sadly, society doesn't see that any teenage mother is capable of being responsible like I have been… What teen mums need is support and a helping hand.... not judgment... but of course it requires a lot of hardship for the teenage mum to become matured and responsible parent for thier children.

















Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Jewel's Torticollis - Before and After


5 months... laughing out loud!


@ 1 year

Jewel.. yeah as her name describes her.... she's such a precious little one in the family. Among all my children, she is the only one who can consumed 12 milk bottles in a day at the age of one. Well, her frame shows it all. We all love to cuddle her and pinch her cheek. She has this little voice that sounds like an elf.

When she was born, she has a Torticollis, or wry neck, a condition in which the head is tilted toward one side. I only realized that when she was 4 month old. From thereon, we sent her for physiotheraphy for at least 4 months. It was very hearthbreaking everytime i send her for therapy. Her scream is unbearable everytime her chiropractor pull and stretch her neck at the other side. They gave us some exercises to do at home which include literally stretching her neck in the opposite direction and also placing soft toys to the side she tilts so that she will turn her head in that direction.

Overtime... at the age of 2, she manage to outgrow with it and now looking perfectly alright.


@ 2 year old

High-5 to my Children -- An opening Post

If someone gave me the option of going back and starting all over but with the limit of only having half as many kids as i do, I’d politely tell them to stuff it. For all the trouble the kids may cause, or the frenzied days where I have to give up my career to cope with my growing children, I wouldn’t trade it. So for anyone who’s wondering if there are any joys to having a big family, aside from the fact that there’s a lot of love to give, let me share with you what they are:

1. I get to kiss four extra people before I go to bed at night. (How many people do you get to kiss before you go to bed?)

2. There’s never a shortage of something funny to tell someone. Many people go through their day without a single funny thing that happens to them.

3. I always have an excuse to buy chocolates....

4. My reading skills are sharp! Someone always needs something to read for Wallace.

5. Leftovers in my house are almost nonexistent.

6. In the middle of thunder storm, little people climb into bed with me keep me warm.

7. My house never feels empty.

8. I always have an excuse to watch cartoons... Barney song has always been our anthem...

I could give you at least a dozen more joys of having a big family but I think you get the picture....


My preciousess.... Alexa, Wallace, Jewel & Juliah.... the 5th still in my belly :-)

 
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